Unsure

Today I don't know how to feel. I am unsure.

I had another Dr. appointment today. I am so excited to say that I was able to see my little baby moving around, kicking and seemed to say 'quit bumping me' :) It was also really reassuring to know that baby has grown bigger than the gestational age indicated by my dates (I am pretty sure that I am further along than what the 'official' due date is)

I am a little nervous, worried, unsure about what else the Dr. saw (altho I'm glad to an extent that he found something). I had some pain on Saturday that made me lie down for a while, my Dr. saw that there had been some bleeding by the placenta, although he said things had settled down by the looks of it. He proceeded to put me on 'light duty' for the next few weeks - take it easy and no heavy lifting. I know it's more to be on the cautious side but it still makes me a little unsure about things, so if you are a praying person, I could definately use some of your prayers :)

What I miss today...

It usually happens in spring - whether it's because my first taste of this experience happened in spring of 2003 or whether it's the last little bit of winter blues - I miss this...

(these are obviously not my pictures, mine were all on film - one day I will transfer them to digital)

I did go to all of these places though - I just love the feeling of being a part of history - as in seeing what it may have been like. Thinking of all the important events that occured in the place where I stood. It is a total different feeling. It is a dream of mine to live in the old country, although I realize that it very well may never happen (plus that would mean being removed from family!) - I can still dream right?

Off the Drugs.. :)

I don't remember if I mentioned this previously, but I was taking Diclectin (safe and Dr. prescribed) so that I could function better. I am very thankful for this drug I was able to do a lot more than without it, even though it did make me quite exhausted (yes more that normal!). Things have been going better overall for the past week and a half and so Monday night I decided to get off the drugs and see how things 'really were'. Now with that decision comes the realization that if I were still feeling really sick and I took another pill, it would take around 5 hrs to kick in, so I would have to tough it out until then. I am so happy I made the decision to stop!! I had such a great day yesterday! I got a lot of the house cleaned in the morning (although did have to take a break so I wouldn't over-exert myself). I had a short nap in the afternoon, but woke up feeling rested (not like the exhaustion that is a side affect of the Diclectin). I had no problems making supper and even got to go outside with the kids while supper was baking (it did get a little extra crispy though because we stayed outside a little too long, hahaha). I got to go and check out my garden and flower bed and see what was all growing :) It is so exciting to find a little soft green leaf, or see the pink of fresh growth!! Some of my plants that are already growing are: iris, bleeding hearts, columbine, rhubarb, tulips, crocuses, strawberry plants, ornimental plum, daisey, CHIVES (I could already use them!!), 'fake orchid' (I forget the real name of this plant), delphinium, seedum, and I think I may be missing a few :) So yesterday was a really good and exciting day for me! I'll leave you with a picture of my garden last year :)
I love summer.. *sigh*

Happy Easter!

We had a wonderful Easter weekend visiting my parents! The kids had a fantastic time and I have some great pictures to come :) A few highlights - quadding of course (this was the first time that K actually went on the quad, she was afraid of the noise before), TJ got to explore in the bush, Easter egg hunt outside, visiting with Grandpa, Grandma, Auntie & Uncle, and even 'cousins' (they are my cousins but close in age to my children) and Great Grandma & Grandpa! As we left my parents place to drive home, TJ asked, 'When do we get to go to Grandma's house again? I miss Grandma and Grandpa!' I can't wait until next time, it will most likely be when the kids have a new little cousin :) Hope you all had a great Easter weekend!!